Back in Time
Camille explains the emotional exhaustion of this episode’s events, and rewatching the show
Hello to all of the Real Housewives of Beverly Hills Fans everywhere. (Hi)
I got exhausted just watching the show. It makes me cringe in so many ways. (That sounds like an appropriate reaction, so maybe you aren’t completely nuts)
I just had gotten back from Hawaii and was off to NYC with my family and a few friends. I remember how excited I was to go see my husband and best friend. It had been at least two months since we had seen each other, because of both of our busy schedules. (You mean because of his busy schedule and your vacations with your friends?)
First, I have to say the apartment was tastefully decorated. It was my first choice when I had gone to NYC apartment hunting with Kelsey a few months earlier. It’s funny to watch myself talking about the apartment in this episode because it only proves the cameras can’t be there to catch everything. (Blaming editing. Typical.) Kelsey was becoming increasingly concerned about the size of the apartment after living there a few months. I was wrong about the square footage. (well then that totally changes everything) He likes his personal space (you mean space from you?) and with only two thousand square feet or so it was going to be difficult to meet his needs, not to mention the kids. I guess I had internalized Kelsey’s concerns and shared them with the camera. (Just in case the editing excuse doesn’t work, blame it on Kelsey! …. but in Kelsey’s defense, I would need at least 20,000 square feet to live with that woman, so yes, 2,000 square feet is way too small.)
In the few weeks leading to this trip, Kelsey became less interested in when I would be moving to NYC to join him with the kids. (Can’t imagine why) The one thing he did share with me was that he was thinking he wanted to move to NYC full time. I told myself he was still in the Honeymoon Phase with his play, but truthfully I realized something was wrong. (Between flirting with the other women’s husbands, dancing like a stripper, stretching in front of your tennis instructor, and prancing around in a bikini in front of your male friends, it’s amazing you had time to realize that something wasn’t right in your marriage.) You know the uneasy feeling that never leaves, it’s there when you wake up and there when you go to bed. (You mean INSECURITY???) When I arrived in town I couldn’t wait to see him. He just wasn’t the same loving partner that had left me a few months before. (He tasted freedom and it changed him) It was a sad day for me. In spite of my personal disappointment I wanted my children to be happy and enjoy our time together as a family. And I still had no idea of what would be coming.
Another thing that weighed heavily on my mind was my mother’s recent cancer diagnosis. (Yes, we all know how hard that was on you) She had been in remission for sixteen years. This new information shortly before this trip was a jolt to all of us. In this episode, I was trying to talk to my mother about her diagnosis. (You mean you were trying to talk to her about how hard her diagnosis was on you) She had told me before that she was fine talking about it, but I guess she over estimated her comfort level on this subject. (The subject of how hard your life is?) I totally respect that because I love my mother very much. We are a very close family. (Yeah, so are the Giudice’s.)
All of these things occupied my mind when the ladies came to town. I was eager to play hostess to the premier of my husband’s play. I had this underlying anxiety about seeing Kyle because of what had happened in Las Vegas. (Omg, still sticking to that story, huh?) Of course, Adrienne was unable to make the trip. I was saddened by Adrienne’s loss and my condolences go to her and her family. (I’m sure Adrienne missing the trip was very hard on you)
When Kyle came to me to apologize for the misunderstanding in Las Vegas I was very open to the idea of forgive and forget. (I don’t think she was apologizing as much as she was trying to explain that you make shit up) I had way to many other more important things on my mind. The original incident was not caught on camera. I believed that for a “she said, she said” situation, it had been blown out of proportion (by you) When Kyle approached me I listened to her apology (again… not so sure “apology” is the correct word) and tried to accept one that I felt wasn’t really there. (maybe because there was nothing to apologize for) I am the type of person who believes an apology should be sincere and from the heart. After I left the room, I just couldn’t shake the fact that she had managed to apologize and insult me in the same breath. (So after watching the incident on camera – you still don’t see how you twisted her words? REALLY? Where the fuck does Bravo find these people?!) It really hurt my feelings when she told me not to be so insecure. I am not saying that I have never had an insecure moment in my life, I, like most people, have had many. This just wasn’t one of them. (That’s right. Because you are shy, not insecure.) After further reflection, I couldn’t go to dinner without letting her know that she hurt me. I didn’t appreciate her dig (there was no dig) wrapped in an apology (she wasn’t apologizing)
…And the rest is history. The situation escalated from there. I did remain composed trying to keep my comments to the situation at hand, instead of name calling and insulting (you just accuse people of saying things they never said). I do wish that this ridiculous incident had never started (you mean you wish that you hadn’t started it?). It must seem so trivial to all of the viewers and I agree. (Not so much trivial as absolutely bat shit crazy) Truly this whole situation is insignificant when compared to what was going on in my family life.
Until next time.
Hey, you know what? Camille is from Jersey. Think that explains some things?
An excerpt from Kyle’s Bravo Blog (It’s just a regular Bravo Blog, no BS in this one):
“I was surprised to hear from Lisa that Camille was upset. After the Vegas incident, I spoke with Camille on the plane back from Vegas. I told her I was hurt that she snapped at me for simply asking about her spring break plans. All of us were sitting together in the lobby of our hotel discussing where we were going. Camille apologized and said that she is a very private person and felt interrogated by my asking. NEVER was there any mention of the comment she CLAIMS I made. If I had said that, why didn’t she mention it then? We were all there for this conversation on the plane.”
“After analyzing this over time, I feel that Camille, for whatever reason, believes people think that so SHE HEARD that. Those were definitely not my words or thoughts. I want you all to know that I do not believe Camille made this up to start problems or to be mean. I know Camille is not a bad person. However, we clearly do not see eye to eye. It really is an unfortunate situation. How I WISH the cameras were there that morning in Vegas!”
Well Kyle was a whole lot more diplomatic about the situation then I would have been.